SilentWater

case of you - marque houston

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 02:32:44 GMT

I'm staring at the pillow where you slept last night
It's almost like you're still lying there
And the shirt that you wore of mine
You took it off and threw it across the chair
Now it's kinda hard to get you off my mind
When I keep seeing you everywhere
For example like the lipstick on that glass of wine
Sitting right over there

And I can't play it off like we're friends like I used to
No, I can't pretend like I used to
So now I'm lying in my bed thinking about you
And what do I do?

Girl, I'm feeling like I'm coming down with a case of you
Now it started in my head but it trickled down to my shoes
I feel so weak, so hard to breathe
But it seems to only happen when you leave, girl
Ain't nobody ever had me feeling quite like you do
I'm coming down with a case of you

Trying not to think about you only got me missing you more
And loneliness ain't no cure
Thought I was over it by now
But, no not yet
Pulled the covers up to my head
Now I'm feeling dizzy, and my mouth is dry
With just a thought of you on my mind
It's kinda crazy, what a mess I'm in
I can't believe this is happening

And I can't play it off like we're friends like I used to
No, I can't pretend like I used to
So now I'm laying in my bed thinking about you
And what do I do?

Girl, I'm feeling like I'm coming down with a case of you
Now it started in my head but it trickled down to my shoes
I feel so weak, so hard to breathe
But it seems to only happen when you leave, girl
Ain't nobody ever had me feeling quite like you do
I'm coming down with a case of you

Now this ain't no common cold
What I feel is original
And I know there's a remedy
When you bring your body back to me

Girl, I'm feeling like I'm coming down with a case of you
Now it started in my head but it trickled down to my shoes
I feel so weak, so hard to breathe
But it seems to only happen when you leave
Ain't nobody ever had me feeling quite like you do
I'm coming down with a case of you

Girl, I'm feeling like I'm coming down with a case of you
Now it started in my head but it trickled down to my shoes
I feel so weak, so hard to breathe
But it seems to only happen when you leave
Ain't nobody ever had me feeling quite like you do
I'm coming down with a case of you

My hand searches for your hand

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 03:32:47 GMT

Need by Hana Pestle

I'm not quite sure how to breathe without you here
I'm not quite sure if I'm ready to say goodbye to all we were
Be with me
Stay with me
Just for now
Let the time decide
When I won't need you

My hand searches for your hand
In a dark room
I can't find you
Help me
Are you looking for me?

Can I feel anymore?
Lie to me, I'm fading
I can't drop you
Tell me, I don't need you

My hand searches for your hand
In a dark room
I can't find you
Help me
Are you looking for me?

Etch this into my brain for me
Tell me, how it's supposed to be
Where everything will go
And how I'll be without you by my side

My hand searches for your hand
In a dark room
I can't find you
Help me
Are you looking for me?

My hand searches for your hand
In a dark room
I can't find you
Help me
Are you looking for me?

Vous me Manquez

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 08:08:28 GMT

I miss you.

That's what I wanted to say
as I reluctantly opened the door
and stepped out
into the cold night.

And out of your life.

te amo

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 15:50:10 GMT

Rihanna

Te amo, te amo, she says to me.
I hear the pain in her voice.
Then we danced underneath the candlabra, she takes the lead.
That's when i saw it in her eyes, it's over.

Then she said te amo, then she puts her hand around my waist.
I told her no she cried te amo,
I told her I'm not gonna run away, but let me go.
My soul has arrived, without asking why.
I said te amo, wish somebody would tell me what she said.
Don't it mean I love you.
I think it means I love you.
Don't it mean I love you.

Te amo, te amo, she's scared to breathe.
I hold her hand, I got no choice, uhhh.
Pulled me out on the beach, danced in the water, I start to leave.
She's begging me and asking why it's over.

Then she said te amo, then she puts her hand around my waist.
I told her no she cried te amo,
I told her I'm not gonna run away, but let me go.
My soul has arrived, without asking why.
I said te amo, wish somebody would tell me what she said.
Don't it mean I love you.
I think it means I love you.
Don't it mean I love you.

Yes we can dance.
But you gotta watch your hands.
Watch me all night.
I move under the light because i understand.
That we all need love, and i'm not afraid.
I feel the love but i don't feel that way.

Then she said te amo, then she puts her hand around my waist.
I told her no she cried te amo, I told her I'm not gonna run away, but let me go.
My soul has arrived, without asking why.
I said te amo, wish somebody would tell me what she said
Don't it mean I love you.
I think it means I love you.
Don't it mean I love you.
I think it means I love you, I love you.

Te amo, te amo, don't it mean I love you.

the Makiling challenge/weekend

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 17:10:25 GMT

We joined the annual Makiling Challenge (of the Makiling Campus Runners) held at the UP Los Banos Campus.

Mula sa barracks, sa Lopez Avenue, sa (impromptu trek sa ) Mt. Makiling, sa flat rocks at sa mudspring, sangkatutak na tawanan, kulitan at sakit ng katawan ang aming trip at hanap. Cheers sa adventures nating mga kababaihan.

and another one

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 03:07:51 GMT

5 Things to do with alone time

by Brett Blumenthal - Sheer Balance, on Mon Jun 1, 2009 5:48am PDT

Not long ago, I wrote about how important 'alone time' is in life and all the benefits it provides. Most of us agree, that for those of us who really enjoy our alone time, we often don't get enough. And when we do get it, we are often left not knowing what to do with it.

Every person, obviously, has different interests. But, regardless of what you personally like to do, here are some good ways to spend time with yourself:

Go for a Walk: This isn't necessarily a workout type of walk. Walking alone, even at a leisurely pace, helps you clear your mind, clear your thoughts and think through problems, issues or concerns you may be facing.
Go to the Beach/Park/Lake: Being in nature, gives you a multi-sensory way to decompress and relax. You smell the beautiful, fresh air. You are visually inspired by the natural beauty with which you surround yourself. And, you become hypnotized by sounds of the ocean waves crashing, seagulls squawking or a distant waterfall.
Read a Book: Reading provides you with a way to get away from your hectic life and learn something new, fall in love or laugh. It is like a vacation away from life.
Take a Class: Taking classes on something you want to learn, whether it be cooking, a new language, dancing or rock-climbing, is highly rewarding. First, it expands your horizons and gives you knowledge about interesting things. Second, it allows you to discover new things about yourself.
Take a Drive: Taking a drive allows you to explore new places, discover new things and meet new people. You can listen to your favorite tunes, and stop along the journey whenever you are inspired to do so.

Obviously, there are a lot of other things you can do. The point is, do whatever you enjoy and have fun. What do you like to do when you get in your alone time?

URL: http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/5-things-to-do-with-alone-time-469624/

interesting article

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 02:57:48 GMT

12 healthy ways to heal a broken heart

by Jessica Ashley, Shine staff, on Mon Aug 31, 2009 2:25pm PDT

Last week, I spilled my guts all over the screen, telling you about how I'd broken up with my boyfriend and ugly-crying, listening to torturous and depressing music, and considering the pros and cons of rather (ahem) involved goodbyes.

What I didn't tell you then is that my emotional pain was manifesting itself physically. I was so nauseated, I had trouble eating enough. My sleep was restless and I woke many times during the night. I was a big ball of break-up mess. As much as I hated hearing my well-intentioned girlfriends tell me that time would heal all of these wounds (and why must girlfriends always say this?), they were right.

One day, I woke up and felt better. The next day, I ate a big breakfast. The day after that, I didn't shed a single tear. I know that was performing its magic on my broken heart. But I also now recognize that the night before I began feeling better, I'd had an amazing hour-long massage and later went kayaking with friends. Those two things took my mind off of the tough stuff and they also made me tired and hungry. Once I slept and ate and felt a surge of centeredness and energy, I wanted to do more good things for myself. Time played a part, yes. But taking good care of myself was fueling me to keep taking good care of myself.

I made a list for myself of things I could do to keep that self-care going. I was careful to skip all the things I thought should be on the list and instead add only things that felt right and good for me. When I told my girlfriends to stop talking about time and start helping me hammer out healthy ways to make it through my days (and nights), they offered me ideas that I loved. The list of five things soon became ten, and that soon led to more ideas. The more things I wrote down and completed, the more things I thought of to write down and do.

I don't feel obligated to get to each idea on my list. I'm not completing a work project, after all. I'm healing a broken heart and tending to myself. This list is simply a compilation of choices I can make, especially in those moments when I feel fragile, sad, or just lonely. The relationship ending certainly doesn't feel good yet, but this self-care really does. As I can and as I need, I am reminded by my list, proudly Post-It Noted to my bathroom mirror as a reminder that I have this opportunity to be healthier and happier.

I am clearly no expert in the art of breaking up or even in relationships. But I've just been through this -- am going through this -- and it seems like just as good a time as any to share what has helped and is helping. I offer to you my list. And I hope that you will share your own here, too. Until time wipes away every last bit of heartbreak, here's how I am choosing to healthfully get through:

1. Begin and end your day with yoga. I am a big believer starting my day with stretching and poses. Not only does it help me loosen up while building muscle, it sets my intention to take good care of my body and mind for the next 12 hours. When I am particularly stressed, adding a 20-minute yoga DVD or practice of my own to my bedtime routine helps me calm any frantic thoughts that may keep me awake. On those days I question whether I have even 10 minutes to give to yoga, I try to remind myself that those are minutes I choose for myself before I give any time or energy to anyone else. That usually gets back to the mat immediately.

2. Replace the crazy messages with meditations. It's so easy to go to the "I'll never find/meet/love someone ever again" place when you are moving through a break-up. It's also easy to believe any crazy parting words or judgments your ex may have thrown at you. Choose a meditation or a few kind words to replace those toxic thoughts. Train yourself to repeat over and over "I will find love when the time is right" or "I am freaking amazing!" or "Everything will be OK" or whatever words soothe you as soon as you realize the old, ugly messages are spinning out of control.

3. Dig out the self-help books. You know you still have shelves full of self-help books that you've only half-read or have not even cracked open. Why not dig into them now? It may seem cliche, but there could be a chapter, paragraph, or even sentence in one of those books that speaks to you or helps you resist the urge to Facebook profile-stalk every guy you've ever dated. If you can't bear to get overly self-helpy in your weak moments, make it into a wellness game. Open up to a random page. Read only chapter 6 in each book. Compile a list of the most ridiculous advice from each book. Who knows? The game could provide some very good Saturday night entertainment.

4. Add essences to your water...and wrists...and temples. I am a believer in aromatherapy. Even if some big, revolutionary scientific research suddenly reported that smells are in no way linked to easing anxiety, sleeping well, or reducing nausea, I would still stick by my essential oils. I not only have been dabbing my pulse points with my "mental clarity" and "stress relief" mixtures, I've been using flower essences that can be added to water or tea or placed under the tongue. The ritual and sweet scent of these essences instantly ease my mind (sometimes for a moment and other times, for hours). Bach Flower Essences are made for all kinds of healing and their Rescue Remedy tablets and chews are a nice way to counter high-tension times.

5. Shed some skin. I scheduled a micro-dermabrasion and peel appointment as a metaphor for sloughing off the past and starting anew. These treatments certainly aren't for everyone, but doing a little at-home exfoliation might serve you just as well. Whether you have an aesthetician peel your face off or you use a beauty gadget or facial scrub, there's no need to get all Joan Crawford on yourself. Be gentle. Be very, very gentle.

6. Soak it up. Once I started seeing the guy, I stopped taking as many baths. I was too busy picking out the perfect shoes to wear to dinner or hiding piles of clutter before having him over for a drink, so I didn't really have time to luxuriate in long, hot baths. Since the break-up, I've reclaimed my time in the tub. I even splurged on expensive bubble bath, dug out the aromatherapy oils, and piled up a bunch of gossip magazines next to the tub so I can get the most out of my time there. I think blogger Brett Blumenthal is right that bathing can help your body detox and relax while also soothing your spirit. Plus, she says it is key for healing injuries. And if a broken heart isn't an injury that is soothed by bubbles, candles, and uninterrupted soaking, I don't know what is.

7. Get it out. If you need to cry, cry. If you need to talk, talk. If you need to journal it out, get out your pen. Even after you're past the point of tears, have used up all your cell minutes getting advice from your girlfriends on the phone, and have maxed out your Facebook status with boo-hoo updates, you may still have thoughts and feelings to release to the universe. Sometimes writing down a single word or keeping track of how you are feeling on a scale of 1 to 10 will solve that. Other times, you may need to write some really bad poetry like you did as a teenager. That's OK. This is what journals are for, my friends. If you are missing your ex, it might help to leave yourself a voicemail message or text yourself with whatever you want to say. It sounds cheesy but it will purge the thoughts so you can move on with your day.

8. Get a massage. We talk often about the health benefits of spa treatments. If your break-up is all balled up in your shoulder and back muscles, getting a massage may release some of the physical and emotional tension. My massage therapist also does energy work that may seem like hoodoo-guru stuff to some people but I swear helps calm me before she's even put a hand on me.

9. Pound it out. Whether you are angry, upset, confused, or all of the above, exercise will help put your emotions at ease and work your body in the best kind of way. Walking has been the best way for me to work all that out. Other friends of mine have really needed to kick-box, run, lift weights, and salsa the stress away. Activity will help you sleep, boost your endorphins, and make you emerge from that pile of Kleenex and archived IMs. Once I decided my quivering lip was a sign I needed to get out and do 5 or 15 laps around the park, I felt more in control. Plus, even 10 minutes can get you to a better place.

10. Crank it up. I am an over-thinker, and most of the women I know are as well. We are all so used to multi-tasking, planning, and taking care of details of everyday living for our whole families that we have a hard time turning off. Lately, I've chosen to stop worrying about turning off and instead just drown out my thoughts, worries, plans, and projections with music. Loud, heavy, cranked-up music. I play it in the car. I blast it through my ear buds. I nearly melt down my laptop whenever I need to not-think. You know what? It works. I mean, who can be wacky, sad, or lovelorn when their booty is shaking?

11. Put it off. My biggest challenge has been abstaining from contact with the former boyfriend. Facebook is not making this any easier. To help myself really make the break, I have been procrastinating contact. If he texts or calls me, or if I feel the urge to be in touch with him, I simply make a deal with myself that I will contact him in an hour (or more). As the hours tick off, I feel more and more triumphant, self-assured, and fine with the silence. If you doubt this is effective, know that one friend told me she put off returning a call to a former friend for a whole year this way. Those hours led to days and then months until -- ta-da! -- there really was no reason to be in touch anymore at all.

12. Make plans. Lots and lots of plans. If your calendar seems devastatingly empty, take the opportunity to reach out to your friends to make dates to go to the movies, flea markets, brunch, a new class. Although I've missed my romantic dates, I've really had fun catching up with friends I haven't seen in...well, since the romantic dates started. As tempting as it might be to use booze to get through your break-up, do consider how much worse you will feel if you add a hangover to your heartache. Meet up for a drink or two (not 12). Even better, go to a show, for a bike ride, or to do something where the companionship and laughs are the focus, not the vodka and Red Bulls.

If you're not up for company or your friends are all caught up in their own lives, make plans to do all those projects around your place you've neglected. De-cluttered closets, organized drawers, folded laundry, framed photos, baked pies and complicated casseroles, completed scrapbooks, and potted plants can all be incredibly healing.

Ahh, now don't you feel better already? After several weeks of abiding by this list, I certainly do.

URL: http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/sex/12-healthy-ways-to-heal-a-broken-heart-507518/;_ylt=AmHsRgAtgOtW4sa1mYgUvWKBbqU5
Photo credit: Getty Images

nothing by FDM

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 03:39:33 GMT

i'll take the sun and have it placed on the band of a ring
and put it on your left hand
walk around with you, proud to tell the world i'm your man
shout it from every mountain, if you say i can

girl, what you want?
if i got anything to say about it
that's what you get
girl, what you need?
don't ever hesitate to tell me so
baby girl, you're supposed to know
that nothing is ever too much
you want the world,
but to me, it's not even enough
i would give you the heavens in exchange for your love
baby, just know that nothing is ever too much for you girl
nothing is ever too much for you, girl

tell me you want the stars to light up the sky
make the call
girl, it's no problem at all
make them change colors, then whenever you like
make them fall
no one is ever too tall

girl, what you want?
if i got anything to say about it
that's what you get
girl, what you need?
don't ever hesitate to tell me so
baby girl, you're supposed to know
that nothing is ever too much
you want the world,
but to me it's not even enough
i would give you the heavens in exchange for your love
baby just know that nothing is ever too much for you girl

make a command
girl, clap your hands
and you will see that i'm for real
tell me your dreams
leave it to me
girl, what you want, you will receive

xoxo

Sat, 22 Aug 2009 16:06:41 GMT

it's coming back.

i thought i dodged it. i can't lose it.

the hurt is coming back. how do you get over a heartbreak? how do you stop waiting? how do you curb the senseless and irrelevant expectations?

will trying to remove the physical proof of your used-to-be togetherness ease the pain? will trying to avoid contact relieve the rejection? will trying to move on pacify the hurt, denial and apprehension? will hoping bring the good times back? or will this just crush me to even smaller and irreparable bits?

i keep faking strength and smiles.

God must be so confused wiith me by now. i keep praying for contradicting things. one morning, it's for him to come back. the next morning, it's for him to be happy. then, the next morning, it's for my strength of will and acceptance. still, the next, it's for whatever His will is. then silently adding that i hope His will is for him to come back.

note to self

Fri, 14 Aug 2009 15:18:22 GMT

8 days ago:

i can't shake the dark cloud hovering over my head. it's slowly enveloping my being. everywhere i go, it haunts me. i can't shake it off.

being alone with my thoughts is frustrating. depressing. heartwrenching.

i've gone through K�bler-Ross' five stages in the past month. through and back. round and round again. round one: denial. round two: anger. round three: bargaining. round four: depression. round five: acceptance.

6 days ago:

the first of many times i felt the wind get knocked out of me. mixed signals, IMs, identical car, exact perfume, places frequented.

it's K�bler-Ross' five stages over and over.

1 day ago:

realization is bitterly sinking in. hands cold with sweat. round five must be realized soon.

4 days forward:

one month since that last sweet memory. three weeks since the end. plaster smile. force it.